Quiet Monday

It was a raining Monday here today. The kind of day you want to just stay in bed and snuggle up with a good book. Well that is not what happened. I got woke up at 4:00 am with my daughter complaining that her head hurt really bad. So up I get to find the children's motrin and give her the recommended doses only to have it come back up thirty minutes later. So from 4 am on we have been up. J was done throwing up by 6 am and has been on the go since. Of course that meant a day off from work to spend with her. Too bad it wasn't for something fun.

What I want to be when I grow up

As I had posted before I started taking some college courses to get my teaching degree and I did really well Spring Semester 2 A's and a B. The B was algebra and I missed an A by .10 points.

As the fuel prices went up and up (my dh is an over the road truck driver) and health insurance went up again I went back to work to help out. I went back to the same job I left to be at home with J. Well technically not the same job, but the same company with great health insurance and pay better then most places. Starting pay at my company is $11.45 and insurance is only $27 every two weeks. But anyways, back to my orignial thought. I wanted to be a school teacher, but now that I am back in the electronic distribution industry and after being gone for almost 4 years and falling right back into the rountine and really enjoying it, I don't know if I will finish up with my schooling or not. The work I am doing is stimulating and I really enjoy it. Maybe this is my true calling.

Haven't Been Here for a while

Well, I sure have not kept up with this blog as much as what I had hoped, but here is what is going on in our house. J is going to be starting kindergarten in September and I have gone back to work. DH is an over the road truck driver and with fuel prices going crazy we needed the extra income and now we have health insurance through my work and are saving $600 a month on health insurance also.

J is a little sad that she is now going to daycare, but at the same time her best friend goes to the same one and they get to play everyday now. It is hard on me too because we have put our adoption on hold for now until we get somewhat caught up on our bills, not that we are behind, but we want to have somethings paid off. As much as I want to bring another child into our lives the expense is not something we can do at this time.

We are just now discussing the possiblity of looking into adopting a child between 1-3 years of age. DH says he doesn't need the baby stage again, but, I'm not sure if I want to miss out on the first smiles, rolling over and everything that goes with babies. We have a lot to talk about.

Hopefully I will get better at posting more often.

Mish Mash

My goodness, it has been along time since my last post and so much has happened. We have been offered to be presented to two different birth moms and have declined both. The first was a birthmom that was going to place her four children ages 5, 2, and twins that are 3 months. We just could not wrap our minds around going from 1 child to 5 overnight. The second situation was a birthmom who had placed with a single mom and then the state would not approve it. There was no way we would be able to get our finances ready to go in the time frame that they needed. So we continue to wait.

I have been extremely busy with school. Taking 3 online classes has been very overwhelming and time consuming. It has been very interesting. My American Lit class that I thought I would have so much trouble with has actually been going very well.

I just took my daughter to the doctor yesterday because she had a fever that I could not get under control. They elected to test her for both strep throat and influenza. Well the test came back that she does indeed have the true flu. It sure has not kept her down though. She her fever only lasted a day and she is bouncing all over the place this morning so she must be on the mend.

Snow, Snow and More Snow

Well it started on Saturday and is still going now. We got over 6" of snow. DD loves it. She has already been out making snowangels. This is her favorite time of the year, she loves to be out in the snow. She makes snowangels, forts, snowmen and anything else she can come up with. I on the other hand am not as pleased. It means lots of shoveling and bad roads. Not looking forward to this winter if it is going to continue the way it started.

On other notes, I talked with our case worker to see if there had been any birthmothers that were looking at us. She said that we were out on at least 5 cases. She also said that they have several birth moms and not enough families with the willingness to adopt outside of their race. So she said that the odds are in our favor that we will match soon.

I have also started taking the online orientation for my upcoming college classes. So far so good. I am really enjoying it and DD is being very helpful and giving me some quiet time to get things done. She is five and has now decided that she is big enough to take over vacuuming the livingroom. It is funny because when I say I have to get some cleaning done she runs for the vacuum and dust rag.

Preschool

Our DD is in her second year of preschool and it is fun to watch how the kids interact with each other. I volunteer for an hour every morning to help get the class started, here is a conversation the I over heard this morning:

Boy: I want some crayons.

DD: You have to say please.

Boy: NO! Give me some crayons.

DD and 2 other girls: Not until you say please. You have to use your good manners.

Boy: NO! NO! NO! I want some crayons NOW!!!!

Boy's Best Friend: All you have to do is say please.

It is funny how they already police themselves to use good manners and treat each other with respect.

Been a Long Time

It has been a long time since my last post. Not a lot has changed in that time. We are stilling waiting to be matched. Our daughter is still asking the hard questions. And my heart has lost all hope in a happy ending. My head still is telling me it will all work out and that DD will have a baby brother or sister.

One of the reasons that I have not posted in a while is that my sister-in-law found out that she was pregnant and I have been trying my hardest to come to terms with the fact that they will now have 3 kids and my other sil will have four and we have one beautiful daughter that wants nothing more than a sibling and we are not able to give that to her.

I know that this sounds like a real pity party and it was. It has taken me a long time to work through it and now I am back. I am going to use my blog as a way to release my feelings.

I am also not going to sit around anymore and let the world pass me by just waiting and watching. I have registered for some on line college classes and will hopefully be able to complete my elementary ed degree in the next couple of years.

No more feeling sorry for myself. On to bigger and better things then that. I will now be waiting a little more patiently with a goal to be completed.